depression/anxiety, anxiety/depression. these terms are used almost interchangeably these days and i have confused them many times myself. now, as i experience both, i finally know the difference. many things i have once loved have seemed to fade. my mind is plagued with negative thoughts and the failure i believe i have become. the list of things i hate about myself could go on and on, and i wish more than anything that i could turn my brain off and be happy again. i am drowning and nobody can save me, no matter how hard they try. people say they care, but how can you care when you see somebody hurting so bad and tell them they have to stay put and ride it out? i told myself i never wanted to disappoint those close to me, even if it tore me apart. now, here i am, feeling worthless and powerless, just to make everyone else happy. maybe someday i will learn, maybe i won’t. what i do know is that there doesn’t seem to be a way out where i can be happy and others can be happy for me. my heart hurts, my body hurts, everything hurts. i’m exhausted. God please answer my prayers. please…